I love being a mom and I love having that special bond I get with nursing. Today was a little rough at work I dropped the bottle I had just pumped but still had one full bottle, I put it in the fridge went back to work. I clocked out went to the fridge and come to find that someone moved it to the top shelf and layed my milk bag on it side and all that milk 4 oz worth all gone evaporated, i wanted to cry I know that is stupid crying over milk. I just want the best for my daughter and nursing is the best and I feel bad when she has to have formula because she is allergic to the kind I have right now and so it makes her upset and cry and have a tummy ache and spit up.. It makes me feel like am I really a good mom I don't know whats upsetting her, how to make her feel better... It just can be frustrating, but look down at her precious beautiful face and smile I know that she really does love me and that some how i'm doing something right.
I know the feeling with spilling milk! I had pumped like 6 oz, and somehow managed to spill it all over my carpet... needless to say I did cry :)
ReplyDeleteBut as far as the formula thing goes, it's a little bit of a different situation with me, but I will say that it did take me some getting used to. I eventually just had to make peace with it because at least it was guaranteed nutrition when I don't eat so well all of the time. Any amount of milk she gets from you is going to give her the benefits that are so great from nursing, that's what finally made it ok with me. She is still getting the immunities that I have, and she's getting what she apparently wants by getting formula 1-2 times a day :)
But you're an amazing mom either way because either way you're providing for your wonderful baby girl :)