Carsons Birth Story

Well my big boy decided that for my last pregnancy I needed it to be a story to tell. I had contractions and lots of pressure leading up to being induced. They didn't ever get consistent enough for me to actually be in labor because they would die when I thought okay maybe it's time haha thank you body let me tell you it wasn't that fun. I decided to work though my contractions and pressure and I worked up to my induction day. With Danika labor came naturally though I did need pit with her to help so I knew how I would do with it. I went in at 8 am and got started about 9 -9:30 and I got on the birthing ball till family came and then the majority of the time I had a peanut ball in between my legs. I did enjoy being able to eat and drink while I was in labor. I think if I hadn't eaten anything I don't think I could have pushed as long as I did, though as soon as I closer to pushing I did stop eating because I didn't want to be sick ( in the 10 years that Bentley and I have been together I haven't ever thrown up) around 9 pm Dr. Tomlinson came and stretched me to a 10 ( just like I had done with danika expects the nurse did that one). Around all this happening and being in labor once again I ended up with a fever just like with Danika which I also didn't know that I even had a fever. Danika was there from 10 am Monday- Tuesday morning at 8 am till she got taken home to eat and have a nap (which she wasn't happy about) she didn't want to leave my side and was upset that when it came time to push she was taken out and eventually she fell asleep ( yes I tried talking her into going home and getting sleep she wasn't going to have it).  I enjoyed having her there with us she entertained us really well and gave us plenty of laughs. Bentley and I decided that because it was our last one we wanted it to be just us, the nurses, and Dr. Tomlinson in the room.  At 1 am I started pushing and I pushed until around 5 am maybe a little after i'm not quite sure because I was exhausted, I was in tears, I hurt yes even though I had an epidural  it had worn off on my left side ( just the same with Danika) so I felt it even with my epidural bolus, I couldn't push any longer my body is just small and he was big for me.  I think that this is the most vulnerable I have felt in awhile. I kept telling Bentley how proud I was of him ( Bentley doesn't like seeing me in pain). It was then I decided that a C section was going to be safest way to get him here and that is all I wanted him here safe and sound. It was pretty easy because of me getting a tubal ligation after I had him Darlene and Christina and Trish, and Chad were all ready there setting up and getting ready for that part of surgery. Now the hardest part was not pushing when I had a contraction because it hurt worse if you didn't push then if you did push but we didn't want him going down further than he was all ready. I was so grateful when I saw Chad to give me another epidural to help ease the pain some. I was very happy to hear country music when I got into the OR I was shaking so bad the last thing I remember telling everyone that I felt like I had turrets because I was shaking so bad I couldn't get myself to stop shaking. The next thing I remember is hearing Carson cry, Bentley sitting on a stool and holding my hand and Bentley describing him to  me that he had hair actually more than Danika did. Someone saying how big he was, Kyle saying he was probably a 10 lb baby, and getting updates about what they were doing. Carson's baby dr was Dr. Kirk which he had some stuff he was also doing and in the OR at the time and I was very glad that he came and did that for me, also for Dr. Piper for assisting Dr. Tomlinson all on such a very short notice. After the sutured my uterus up they then did my tubal ligation. It was great that majority of my co workers came in and saw him while we were in the OR it helped keep me alert and more with it then before. After everything was done I was wished congratulations and then I was helped over to the other bed. I was then taken to recovery and Bentley let his mom and my mom know that Carson was here and then they were brought back after I had fed him. After a few mins we were taken back to our new room where we were going to finish the rest of our hospital stay. We had lots of visitors and I loved seeing everyone that came to visit us even though I didn't feel the prettiest. Shauna for bringing me lemon bars and Bentley fudge brownies my lemon bars were amazing!!!! All the staff that took care of us during labor and after where all amazing. He is our miracle baby boy that we wanted to help complete our family and we are very blessed. I'm so very thankful for Dr. Tomlinson and everything she has helped us with seeing me whenever I had a problem or I thought something might be wrong and reassuring me because I know that I was distance alot of times just trying to keep my worries down( at least i felt like that). Also for her ma Tina she always puts a smile on my face and I enjoy seeing her whenever I went in or around work, she always made sure to get back to me no matter what she is pretty amazing.  The one thing I loved the most is that I saw her more than I ever saw my ob/gyn I had with Danika which was about 2-3 times I do remember at least seeing him twice. Most of all how smitten Danika is with her baby brother. She takes good care of him and is mommys big helper. Thank you everyone that helped us with the birth of our baby boy!

Almost to the end along with decisions.

The 1st trimester was a roller coaster of up and down emotions every week and every ultrasound that I had done every week I was scared, nervous, worried and everything that could happen would. Yet I would talk me through the countless weeks up till the 2nd trimester. Once I hit that I was more open to telling people I was pregnant at work, though i was showing so it was hard for me to hide it sometimes. I have made it so far through cold, fever, flu season without getting it which has made me pretty happy considering that my immune system isn't has strong as it normally is. I was excited that I made it to the 3rd trimester and as I have been getting closer to my due date anxiety has settled in and i'm stuck trying to fight it. Earlier I hadn't forgotten that i had a miscarriage last year but it was just put someone where in the back of my mind. Then all the sudden in my mind I remembered that May 25th was just a bad a very bad day for Bentley and I. I'm scared that I have made it all this way and then its taken once again from us. I really don't know if I can handle the emotions of another loss, of being pregnant again over and over and over again... Yes this may seem irrational to some because they haven't been there and they don't know how hard it is. So everyday i'm happy to feel him move even if he is in a spot that I absolutely hate him in, or if I feel like a pinball machine inside i'm just grateful that the medicine i'm has helped my blood stay thin enough to support him and I during this journey. 6 more weeks left and 48 more days left till we are able to meet our baby boy and shortly after I have him I will be taken back to surgery for a tubal ligation which means no more birth control pills for me. That really does make me ecstatic!!!!!

This time around I don't feel as nearly stressed,

                                         This is Called a Turtle when we found out it was a boy this is what we saw                                             first      

Yesterday we found out we were having a boy and we are ecstatic to say the least. I wasn't sure what I was having I knew with Danika that we were having a girl, this one wanted to surprise us lol. I know though that there was a chance it could be a boy because everything has been polar opposite than with Danika. Though I was reading my baby book last night and I felt a calm sense in who I wanted things done. Going over a few things with Bentley I am so relieved that we are agree on a lot of things which by the way makes things so much nicer. I know my birth plan also it's simple, it's sweet and it's something I know I wont get disappointed if it doesn't go that right way. As we were talking last night. I decided that if two of the people I wanted to come were able to make it they would be in the room this time sharing in the experience. Bentley has a hard time sometimes with nasty smells and the smell of the iron in the blood and there is a lot of that. I prefer him to be feeling great when the baby is here so he can give his undivided attention to whats going on with the baby. If not the nurses can help or if some of my friends that are co workers can sneak away during work or whatever they can come help because of my job some of them have all ready seen my lady parts because of the surgery I had last July. No mother or mother in law in the room this time though, I like sharing and giving other people turns. Also an episiotomy will be okay if needed I had one with Danika and  I might need one this time, forceps or vaccum are okay also. Danika also needed forceps to help get her our she had some marks but she was doing great. If a C section is needed there is only one person that isn't allowed to look in the window or stand in the corner of the room, people don't need to know her name but those that know who she is might understand why I don't want this. I have voiced this at work all ready so they  know. I want an epidural as soon as I can have one because those make me happy. As for Carson as soon as he can be circumcised he will be that's the one thing I told Bentley he was in charge of making the decision on and I am glad we were thinking the same thing (thats the hard part). Now we all ready know that there is a huge chance that Carson most likely have Jaundice because of my blood type and what his could be either A+ or B+ and my blood type is O+ and its called ABO incompatibility. Bentley's Blood type is AB+ because of this none of our kids will have my blood type and will have A or B blood which doesn't mix well with my blood, leaving them for a lot higher risk of Jaundice. We were very lucky with Danika and she actually had the lowest Jaundice score of babies in the nursery born the same day as her.  We are hoping that the same thing is with Carson but you just realize and understand that there is a possibility that its more likely to happen. The only thing that we really realize is that we have no clothes for a boy hahaha so in some ways we feel like we are starting all over again. Luckily we have most of the expensive stuff out of the way so we don't have to worry about that and we got a few months to buy clothes here and there for him. It was amazing watching and listening to Danika when we got the ultrasound done yesterday. She was so excited when Bentley would tell her look there is a hand and a foot, his face and so on. Now she did find the placenta boring and umbilical cord very boring and when they did she did the heat sensor thing danika called it bubbles and was so excited. Here is the ultrasound photos from yesterday the ones  I didn't post on facebook. .