It's okay to struggle

I found that this last loss has been especially hard one for me to find my way back to the new me. As to why i'm not particularly sure maybe its because I have had 4 losses back to back to back to back or maybe its because I know that condition I have now and I'm upset with my body and I hate it and I feel like it is betraying me. I know its genetic though no one knows where it came from, out of blue is what happened.Yet you should be able to trust your body and you just cant find the nerve to trust your body ever again. Eventually I will come to terms and that for me this is a struggle that I will get through. I am brave, I am strong, and I can do this, and I will get to the top.